This week is pretty deep. It is really making me think. Reflecting on how I rate myself for:
A-physical well-being right now I would say only about a 4 or 5 at this time because of having to deal with my cancer and treatments.
B-spiritual well-being I would also rate pretty low at this time at about a 5.
C-psychological well-being I would rate around a 6.
The reason I feel this way is thinking back I was doing about an 8 in all areas before May. Being told you have the “C” word was not one I expected and really dropped me physically, spiritually, and emotionally. I am doing better psychologically because I have come to terms with it and now it is just finding my way back spiritually and getting through my treatments. I think one goal for my physical well-being will be to lose weight and add more time for me into my day. I can implement this by doing more walking exercises and also scheduling 20 minutes in the morning and evening for quiet time relaxation exercises. Spiritually a goal will be to find my way back to what makes me happy spiritually, sometimes I’m sad that at 42 I am still searching. I think I still need to keep searching before I can say how I can implement this. Psychologically a goal will be to regain clarity on my thinking processes. For this I have been doing artsy type things to keep my brain working but I know full clarity will not come until my chemo is done.
Hello Tina!!
ReplyDeleteI couldn't agree with you anymore this was a bit awkward and nerve racking to really look at yourself under a microscope. I applaud because you can admit that with what your going through has jeopardized where you once were. Though I haven't gone through it myself my mother is a two time cancer survivor. I had seen that light that shined so bright just barely twinkle. The main things she did was to go for nature walks, go to the beach and clear her thoughts, joined a mediation group, and really admitted she needed help to get back up. I hope these few examples may help you someday if your not doing them now. Might I add I had a son which gave her new meaning to fight stronger than ever. I know you have it in you! Best of luck!!
-Maite
Hi Tina,
ReplyDeleteI hope that you're feeling a little better this week. I can't relate to fighting such a hard battle like cancer, but I do know what it's like to feel hopeless and struggle when you have health problems that you have no control over, and that were difficult to diagnose. While I haven't been the best lately at keeping a regular exercise routine, I know that running or at least walking once a day helped. I felt a little better physically, I had time to meditate and process also. You seem like a pretty strong person. I know that pushing through school right now may be hard, but worth it in the end.
Leslie
First off, ~hugs~
ReplyDeleteI've been watching a friend of mine go through a similar journey. I still remember her announcement earlier this year that she'd been diagnosed with breast cancer. Since then, it's been interesting to watch the sheer range of emotions she experienced while going through chemo, then surgery a couple weeks ago, and she starts radiation tomorrow. There is so much that is experienced in such a short amount of time, and it can be hard to contend with. Stay strong, you are beating this, and you will win.
Janelle R
Hi there Lady, Flowers don't search to grow they just do. Spiritaul growth, with its many paths, are filled with "which way do I go" to make spiritual development interesting. If the interest of spirituality is lost...well I'm sure you know the rest of that. Having a positive outlook on your journey is the right to feel how ever and to see such and such. My spirit and I get into it from time to time but we know that I want to experinece life in many forms (i.e. love/ hate, give/take, have/have not). I be DOGON!!!! I spent the rest of time with no stories tell with the others about my journey as a human. ;*)
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